8-14-2024 – A Word to the Wise – I am presently working on the Motivational Gifts in the womb. The section now deals with violence in the womb. I see my mother’s world even more clearly. I realize to some degree she suffered with paranoia. Her childhood was terrible by any measure. Her father was a violent man who kept a handgun under his pillow. Some said he rode with the James gang at one time. She left home at 12 to go to work and provide for herself.
At the age of 18 she had my sister, Joann, and 7 months later Joe and I; twins were born.
But what took place during those seven months of pregnancy was to have a profound effect for there were constant arguments with my dad, I suspect violent at times.
However, there was a side of my mother which was very godly, and intellectually wise, no doubt brought about by the Lord’s gifts and intervention.
But I remember the terrible argument between the two and the intervention by the police. As I remember bits and pieces and the aftermath even to this day, I cringe. Finally, it ended in a divorce when I was four. My father was an addicted gambler who could not support his children. I never felt loved by my father, probably wasn’t. He loved my sister and brother dearly but not me. My mother was partial to my brother. However, I am always aware of the Lord and his presence, and protection and his care for me even at this early age. I felt special to the Lord.
The divorce brought about an even more dramatic change since mother went to night school and worked in the day I was placed in the care of abusive alcoholics.
But violence followed me all through childhood. Mothers’ family were for the most part all drunks, which would lead to violent situations some even murdered. My Uncle was wounded in the battle of the bulge 1944-1945 and when he returned home the alcohol, and violence was ever apparent.
At eleven I saw him attack my mother with a knife ripping her arm open, blood going everywhere. Other family members were present but there was no emotional response from any of them.
Almost daily my brother and I were subjected to violent beatings.
I am able to see a connection between the womb and this world of violence and at the same time the Lord’s protection. The same presence and protection on the streets of South Dallas going from one violent situation after another only now with some authority to do something.
Just as the literature shows what the fetus experiences in the womb affects the physical, mental and emotional experiences later in life I find to be true.
But what is left out is Jesus’ proclamation in John 9 to his disciples when meeting the man born blind from birth” Jesus states this blindness occurred “that the works of God might be manifest in him,” It makes so much more sense now eighty years later. I see how the Lord uses motivational gifts to build event after event molding character.
But what is missed in the documentation by the learned researchers is how the Lord uses all of those events in the womb to later bring glory to the Father.
Thus, the purpose is seeing, understanding the gifts and their function and purpose.
